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You're slipping slowly from my reach.....
On The Edge June 2000
Daniel Woolham
Everyone has two sides to them, one which they show-one which they prefer not to. Behind that happy smiling face lies a sad depressed picture of sympathy. A fallen, lost, grim reminder of their old self. Thoughts will run through your head of such deluded view on the world and how many times now it's turned its back on you
Now it's your turn!
Are we alone? Whom can we turn to? What can we do?-But wait, wait for the light at the end of the long tunnel that for so long hasn't been in sight, and guess what, still isn't!
Hope goes all you can look forward to is unconsciousness you can be left alone here but once again you're going to be let down dreams set in there's no way you can hide, fight or run. The darkness has been around me for so long now who needs change now? All you can do is wait and hang on to the bit of sanity you have left. All that can happen now is change and that is seemingly impossible now. You're trapped in your own conscious or sub-conscious image and personality, you're nobody anymore just a drone how can you possibly amount to anything now? You may try to reach out for some sort of anchor to grasp to give a foothold, a Leigh way as it were in this, what seems like an almost eternal struggle. Nobody or nothing can help. You don't want their help they put you there they can't help.
Dreams, ambitions, hope-they all have no place here because when you bank on salvation you slip even further into the recesses of hell when you don't find/get it. Maybe someone could help if they knew but they will never know how strongly the inferno rages unless shown but they won't get that privilege now! Everyone has problems be it at different levels there are signs, shy, coy, withdrawn, emotionally retarded whatever you want to call it, it's the same thing. It always starts with the questions, which are aroused from the taunting and torment your mind has slowly crumbled. This is where character must prevail it never does!
Eventually when you convince yourself you're completely normal but still you're in disbelief that's where your head starts spinning, spinning into recesses of madness with no forseeable sign of a way out, Nirvana as it were. This is quite sarcastic in a way due to they started the torment and you are the one that continues SELF MUTILATION ISN'T JUST PHYSICAL!!!!
The only help you can get is "everyone has slight problems"-no, I'm sorry slight, SLIGHT do me a favour!
Nobody really cares they're too tied up in their "slight" problems to care. We are alone!
Is there any way out?-Well there's always one lurking at the back of your mind but that's not an option-or it is? There's no help avaliable from yourself or anybody else, just hope but how long will that stay with you here? What we need is some sort of oracular ability so we know; know know if at all salvation is coming. But we don't!
You know what they say "Desperate times...." Yeah it's true but its not the last thing we need is to be noticed and pointed out to the world as sick. Silence is a blessing of one in my condition it helps to be left from the from the things that cause distress and pain to your pathetic life the last thing we want or need is more criticism but well we're going to get it either way, we're going to get knocked even more if that's imaginable.
On the other hand it's also our pitfall-people are running from their silence their dark side not embracing what is there to offer, their true nature, why hide? They're running from their twisted true self's; they're a charade hiding from their own dark side. That's the difference we're withdrawn they're too emotional and conscientious. We can't cope with feelings they get pushed aside so the pain can't be shown to others we have to be strong alone! You see if anyone finds out what's going on back there in those dark eyes they'd freak and then the pain would be shared in worry. True feelings pass on pain it gets back eventually and stabs you in the back.
How can we win? There is no happy medium believe me I have looked hard enough. Everyone is quite contempt to stand back and laugh at the world and you along with them, you will see how the world laughs back but this laugh will break any soul. You see I know why we are put on this God-forsaken hell hole to see how well we crack you may think I have but then you see you'd be wrong you see you're the twisted one if you've read this and shrugged it off bare truth can be hard! But don't run draw back the stage curtain and look you will see how life works. When you realise this it will be too late you will be too late you will be rotting somewhere slowly, while I laugh!!!!!!!!
Try to draw back the stage curtain life death you don't know the half of it.................
EVERYONE IS ON THE EDGE
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN PUSHED?
I AM NOW TRUELY STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
